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“Women afraid of dying while / they are trying to find their life.” Poetry of Abortion by Alissa Quart ‹ Literary Hub

This week’s leak from the Supreme Court vote to strike down Roe v. Wade decision caused waves of outrage across the land: The 1973 decision provided federal constitutional protections of abortion rights. Now it appeared women would be shorn of a guaranteed protection they had had for 49 years.

For Alissa Quart, a journalist, producer, poet and executive director of the Economic Hardship Reporting Project, the leaked decision reminded her of the women she had interviewed in abortion-clinic waiting or procedure rooms or by phone from their homes, across three different states . Most of them were poor; even without an unwanted pregnancy they’d be living on the edge of crisis.

It’s not surprising that reporting found its way into the documentary poem “Clinic” that follows. There are the women with mothers “full of God,” the one with the boyfriend who dropped her over the abortion, the one whose boss will fire her if she’s pregnant. One woman has a boyfriend to hold her hand de ella, but for most there does not seem to be much empathy or help beyond the clinic walls.

In the waiting room, the terrifying mingles with the mundane: the specter of an anti-abortion killer—“a man / with a Santa beard and a long gun / enters a clinic in Indiana” coexists with a woman talking about how she “got a cold from / her two year old.” The experiences of wealthier women aren’t so great either, at least as far as décor goes—“a paneled private / room, Reagan-era / red, with fake curtains, / a bad stage set.” But there’s a reward: “the surprise / guiltlessness.” Women expect to be miserable, the surprise is when they’re not.

In this complex, moving poem, Quart captures both the determined resistance and the fatalism of women trying to gain some control over their lives in a milieu that doesn’t particularly want them to have any. For far too many women, this is just the way it is: “Women afraid of dying while / they are trying to find their life.”

–Katha Pollitt

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“Clinic”
by Alissa Quart

1.
When we type “abortion”
autofill writes, I am pregnant.
I am pregnant in
Spanish. I am having
a baby and have no
insurance. I’m scared of having
to baby. What trimester am I
What trimester is abortion illegal?
Google says: I need your love.
I need an abortion.
I am pregnant can I eat shrimp?
Am I having a miscarriage?
I need help paying for abortion.
Abortion clinic violence.
Not ready to have this baby.

two.
God will punish, old ones
say in unison. they sing,
“Genocide.” by hand
with a Santa beard and a long gun
enters a clinic in Indiana.
In Mississippi, it’s day-glo
signs, floppy hats, tiny
peachy fetus dolls.
Their lawn chairs
too near Women’s Health,
their flesh sunscreen white.
Metal-detectors-
as-framing-devices.
Surveillance cameras as
glass birds.

In a place like this, in America, a long gun.

Women afraid of dying while
they are trying to find their life.

3.
On a normal day, women aged
23, 19, 41, 35.
Work at Kmart, Home Depot,
at daycares, at the hospitals
at night. Today, they learn
a new vocabulary.
Ultrasound, waiting period,
Trailways, TRAP law,
witnesses. They learn
the way euphemisms mostly tell
the truth. That the polite
word is always “discomfort.”

The door clicks when it locks.
Hungry to talk, no words.

Four.
She’s got a cold from
her two-year-old.
The doctor talks through
the procedure. someone
holding her hand, not
her husband.

From a Baptist town, her mother
full of God. so she lied,
got on the bus here. Drove
for three hours, borrowed
money for the hooker
motel, then overnight
waiting period. wondered whether
God cared or was it the care
her mother managed.
One girl was a sturdy teenager,
tall enough to play center.
Signed the parental notification
with a broken ballpoint.
Another, redheaded, the hottest
number at the Bingo Hall in
Shreveport. Grandma drank.
“What about your boyfriend?”
She answers, ”I have stopped
talking to me. all i wanted

was the baby.”
With her own body, hurtling.

One boss wouldn’t let
the woman sell car parts
if she was pregnant.
One called minister
the clinic “baby parts.”

One was doing this for
the other baby.
The soldier said she was
doing this so I can fight
for this country.

5.
The ATM spits out $500.
She slid inside the office
building, paid money to
a counter lady, was led into
a paneled private
room, Reagan-era
net, with fake curtains,
a bad stage set.
silk fishtail fern,
mustard satin bedspread.
She was put to sleep
woke up to saltines,
other posh sleepy women
in gowns, a cult circle.
Her friend called it
“The Anaconda.”
Always the code
words and then the surprise
guiltlessness.

6.
Bed rest with the mysteries. Oldblood.
A mandala of succor and suffering.

Dark blood could mean anything.

It gets sloppy when you are trying to find love.

A glass of water, a small
pill. Hard candy, saltines
afterwards. Silk

flower in your hair.

7.
Poems about abortion,
poems about abortion and feelings
of sorrow. Google says: shame or guilt;
Remorse is Forever: Abortion Poem
.
Post Abortion Stress Syndrome
Support
. Poems about abortion from
a baby’s point of view
.

8.
Say: No shame.
We can say: The
birth spectrum.

Choices are always field work,
freedom song, elegy,
captivity narrative.

This feeling won’t forget them;
won’t forget you.

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Katha Pollitt‘s “Subject to Debate” column, which debuted in 1995 and which the Washington Post called “the best place to go for original thinking on the left,” appears regularly in The Nation. “Subject to Debate” won the National Magazine Award for Columns and Commentary in 2003. Her most recent book by her is Pro: Reclaiming Abortion Rightswhich New York Times listed as a Notable Book of 2014.

For her poetry, Pollitt has received a National Endowment for the Arts grant and a Guggenheim Fellowship. Her 1982 book Antarctic Traveler won the National Book Critics Circle Award. Her poems by her have been published in many magazines and are reprinted in many anthologies, most recently The Oxford Book of American Poetry (2006). Her second collection of her, The Mind-Body Problemcame out of Random House in 2009.

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